Extreme obesity

This is not a place to hate. Simply to speak your mind on feederism. I do not intent to trigger anyone, but I feel like it’s healthy to speak about this fetish and life on the somewhat controversial side too.

The reason I started this is because I’ve been having this view on life and feederism for a while and I feel this is the best place to get this out of my system.

I’m a feedee, started with this when I was 13. Stopped and lost weight and started over when I turned 18. I’ve been gaining for the past 6 years, although gaining the majority of my weight in the first year. I now weigh around 128 kg or 282 lbs. Given the education system I had to choose what I wanted to do for a living, when I was 16, when going from high school to college I guess (I don’t know the equivalent of our levels of education compared to other countries). I was out of the gaining community and chose to go to school to become a nurse. Two years into nursing school I fell in love with being a feedee again. Gained 100 pounds in one year. Got caught by my parents, as I still live with them, and slowed down to slowly gaining a pound or two here and there. I had pretty big goals even as a 13 year old and quickly came to realize that I fucked up. I wanted to gain. I had goals to become 400-500 pounds. But I couldn’t.

I became a nurse at 20 years old, worked for a year and decided to look for something else. As I had chosen my path to work in healthcare, I love the world of healthcare and I want to keep working there, I also don’t know what else to do. I’m currently in school to get my bachelors degree as a Radiology assistant, to make x-rays, ct and mri scans.

The older I get the more I struggle with life. I’m not depressed, but knowing that I can’t live my life to be fat is really frustrating to me. I don’t value life the same as most. I’m not looking to live till 90, I’m not looking forward to having kids and I don’t want to be working my ass of just to keep working till I’m too old to enjoy life. I keep thinking this is a phase but it keeps bothering me. The fatter I get the fatter I want to become.

In my perfect world I want to find a female feeder who earns enough to be financially stable, I will get a job somewhere where I am able to become fatter and earn something on top. And then just gain. Gain until I’m happy.

I think you aren't alone in not wanting to do the traditional thing of breaking your back over work until retirement. This is one of the talking points of the antiwork movement, which aims to change the culture of work so that it serves the needs and happiness of workers rather than merely generating revenue for corporations and capital owners.

Regardless of your stance on that movement, you have a good reason to want to enjoy your life while you have the ability to. Obviously this is difficult without sacrificing some time and effort toward work, but your motivations are sensible.

I might be speaking to simply assuage myself, of course; I am planning to go back to school for a creative writing MFA rather than continue my current job as a software engineer, because while I am reasonably good at the latter, it doesn't spark the joy of the former. I am willing to sacrifice financial gain for a career writing books or even just teaching about writing because it is my passion.

I think it is important to find a career that will enable you to live the life you want to live now, rather than 50 years from now. Maybe that means continuing on your current path and saving up money for an early retirement. Ultimately only you will know what will make you happy, and you will need to balance all of your desires against one another, but the goal is to be happy. A life lived in misery is no life at all.

Especially in the medical field it would seem there are few careers that are more sedentary than not. If you could find something to do in a hospital, perhaps at a desk, with good pay and relatively light work, it would be easier to gain weight. Being 400+ plus pounds wouldn't make you ineligible for such a job, especially if you prove to be good at it and make an impression of same.

It’s not that I don’t want to work, I just chose a certain path before getting serious about wanting to be fat. I might one day be lucky enough to find a woman that wants fatter and make a change of career paths. But I seriously don’t see myself being happy if I’m forced to stop gaining.

All I meant is that a job with less moving maximizes gaining.

I get you, I too ask sometimes if this life is worth it. Especially when it goes so far against all the life choices I have made so far. But this fetish isn’t worth the struggle with your mental health and friends and family relationships. Maybe you can talk to a therapist to help you with the problems you are facing? If you’d like to vent to someone you can always send me a message.

My backup plan is to start teaching when I’ve gathered a few years of experience in my field. Maybe that wil open up the possibilities of gaining to an more extreme weight. And I know I won’t be bed bound by the time I hit 500 pounds. I think however that the image of a 400-500 pound hospital worker, isn’t widely accepted in society…

I'm glad that conversations like this exist. A lot of FF is hyper-focused on getting as fat as possible by any means possible. And while that's not necessarily a bad thing (for the most part), I think we need to have more conversations about the real-world aspects of this.

People with aspirations that conflict with their ability to indulge in this kink/fetish/lifestyle are valid. People who gain weight and decide they prefer things to stay a fantasy are valid. People who want to gain weight but feel on the fence about actually doing it are valid.

It doesn't make you less of a feedee/gainer if you have to maintain or lose weight for any reason. It doesn't make you less of a feedee/gainer if you keep everything in the fantasy realm.

You belong in this fetish just as much as those actively gaining.

Very well said, I think it’s good to voice these thoughts. All of feederism is so much fantasy. People who are forever growing, all those ssbbw models that are famous within the community. Things get frustrating sometimes.

I think it depends on what health issue they have. I agree that weight loss isn't the end all be all. A lot of health concerns can be resolved by doing something else.

But some medical conditions can be helped by some level of weight loss. For example, my grandma has osteoporosis. While losing weight will not fix the problem, it can be helped by maintaining a lower weight. To put it simply, she had to lose weight because her bones are not strong enough to support her.

This also doesn't take into account the more extreme forms of obesity such as immobility. I don't think most immobile people will tell you that they are as fit as a fiddle. But on FF, I believe that is part of the appeal.